of August. (I like prescheduling). This also happens to be the day that I wrote
my personal statement… and I had some very mixed thoughts while writing it.
they’re intending to go to university. It’s like you’re trying to fit something
along with your grades to make them more personalized – to make the numbers
into something more humane. While writing it, I quickly took all the best
aspects of myself, all my achievements, and buttered them best I could. I
chucked them on the page, and that was that.
some sort of way I had just reviewed myself like I review my books. I’d looked
for what I liked most and what I didn’t like. Instead of being honest though,
I’d only put what I liked and what looked best in order to ‘sell’ myself to the
university. Sort of how an author promotes their own books – they’re not really
going to go around flaunting their negative reviews, right?
too. As soon as I go to university (you know, if I pass those exams, if I get
accepted… if, if, if *bites nails anxiously*) then I would be feeling the
pressure to live up to all the things I have put down on that piece of paper. I
know there won’t be someone watching me like a hawk to see if I lived up to all
the things I claimed I was and am, but there would be that mental note tucked
into my mind of what I pledged whenever I am doing something.
already am feeling that pressure. The worst thing about it is that I wrote it myself. Sure, I needed to
write one, so you could say it wasn’t really done willingly…
something as little as writing a personal statement way too much.
of pressure on ourselves. Sometimes there are outer forces influencing that as
well, and sometimes there really aren’t. But what you need to remember is that
when you shouldn’t even promise yourself when it comes to goals. Aspire towards
them, yes. Encourage yourself, yes. But don’t fret and stress about getting
there, because that’s just unnecessary panic you don’t need in life.
way, and exceed all expectations.